Getting in that van was the first time I didn’t mind her, and it was weighing on me. Part of me was like, why didn’t we just come back a day early to make her happy, and another part of me was like, why should we?
Mama was still going on about Fucking Florida in November. My birthday came and we had a party, and she didn’t come. Said something like her eye hurt.
Later she admitted she didn’t come because she didn’t want to go where she wasn’t wanted. It really hurt my feelings she didn’t come to my birthday party, she always made them the best. She did come to a family dinner where she and Wayne spent a tremendous amount of energy not speaking to each other.
Excerpt from Care & Feeding by Chela Gutierrez.
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